almost a human being

I honestly write for no one but myself. Its only of the few resolves I have besides listening to music. It keeps the stranger at bay.
My belief is to never stop questioning everything, you just have to know what not to question sometimes for your own sanity. Questioning people is quite tricky I would rather live without hurting someone if questions that don't have to be asked are left while someone tries to put their life back together. I am trying that as well. Its getting better but sometimes just take time.

I have my class schedule for the spring semester. The courses have been paid for already. I need to get my books sometime before the 12th of Jan. I almost feel slightly accomplished.

I keep trying but no end is near. I hate having to take pills to go to sleep, you never know when your going to wake up. I am here litless and utter in contempt. No rest for the wicked I guess.

Quite frankly I cannot express in words the urges and annoyances I have to deal with on a daily basis, guilt kept me here for longer than I wanted and no I am paying for it in more than a few ways. I will move out as soon as It is humanly possible for me too. I can not continue like this.

I could list all the things that have gone wrong within the past week, but that would not change a single thing.
I am frail. I am going about my day the best I can.

a note on this week

history was made. Honestly everyday will become history the next. I am struggling with sleep. Bitterly fighting with it for rest. I looked in the mirror this morning and I look like a corpse.

If you don't write just for yourself, then honestly there is no point in writing at all. Its a merely a cry for help or more specifically a grab for attention.

Sometimes a new friend is the best medicine

All my relationships start on some chance meeting. They might be visions from the past but this meeting is different. The scale has been tilted we might just be friends thats always nice but sometimes a relationship buds.

This happened the other day and I enjoying how it goes, and im not hurried about anything.

Why bitch when your not going to do anything about it.

I don't really feel the need to vent and gripe here anymore. I change what I can when I can, and I to have be able to accept that my life isn't what I want it to be right now. Since replacing my phone and losing almost all my numbers I've only had to re add three numbers that where there which people called me from. See sometimes its nice to forgot.

nhv

no happy view no happy view.

i cant go on much longer like this.

help

I feel so alone today.

ramblings of my alcoholic family

there is never silence here.

readjusting

So its taking some work to readjust to life without a constant time sink. I'm still ill but I don't have the mindless activity I once had, and I'm not going to switch one habit for another, t.v. is not the solution. I'm cleaning more and trying to do the things I should have been doing in the first place. My memory loss is still my nemesis, it plagues me around every corner.
I just want to live my life and I am still unable to truly claim this one as my own.

So I quit wow, when i un-installed it i had an extra 8 gigs of space on my computer.

a handful of coins that I can never seem to hang onto

somethings make you smile even when you are completely scattered brained.