ramblings of my alcoholic family

there is never silence here.

readjusting

So its taking some work to readjust to life without a constant time sink. I'm still ill but I don't have the mindless activity I once had, and I'm not going to switch one habit for another, t.v. is not the solution. I'm cleaning more and trying to do the things I should have been doing in the first place. My memory loss is still my nemesis, it plagues me around every corner.
I just want to live my life and I am still unable to truly claim this one as my own.

So I quit wow, when i un-installed it i had an extra 8 gigs of space on my computer.

a handful of coins that I can never seem to hang onto

somethings make you smile even when you are completely scattered brained.

even the ativan doesn't help sometimes

I've pretty much found out that I almost always feel alone, with my family and a lot of my friends. This sense of utter restlessness sub cums me and I become utterly hopeless.
I spend most of the day curled up wanting this endless feeling to go away.

Tis the season for having to deal with drunken idiots.

I have pretty much have not gotten drunk in almost 2 years, 3 years if you omit the several months of drunkenness that I sub came to for a period. The reason why I stopped was because: it was getting old, and it was not a good thing to do with my medication. My sobriety hasn't prevented me from still associating with my friends that still do drink, I just become the designated driver more often than not. My willingness to be around drunk people does not however excuse them from their behavior.

People have been saying that they miss me. Thing is though I have been in the same place for a year, and they haven't bothered to find the time for me. All I have is time.

When you never want to answer your phone.

Realistically nothing good has ever occurred from me answering a phone. It seems only those who want something of me wish to call, no one seems to ask the question of why should I call him, just merely that they are calling to vent or digress from their lives. I am subjected to peoples bitching and their bad news. I have enough bad news for a life time and frankly I don't feel the need to spread it around like a common cold.